Good morning girls. We laid my precious mom down beside my father yesterday around 11:30. It was a beautiful service and something most phenomenal happened at grave site. I will share one day soon.
It was just 72 days from when we laid Dad down to rest that we laid mother beside him.
I do not understand all things that has happened the past 72 days but I guess it is not for any of us to understand all. Both my mom and dad's life were never really in my hands. I was only a servant to them. I did not add to their days nor did I take away from their days. I want to blog about some things that were told me by another blogger, but those things need to wait.
I spoke at my mom's home going and wanted to share it with you.
I will be gone for a while. I am in need of such healing and learning who I am. So take a minute and read her Eulogy .......... it was my mother.. I miss her this morning with an emptiness that words cannot even begin to explain. BUT she is rejoicing with the angles......
**********************************************************
MY MOM
SEPTEMBER 17, 2010
My mom was a very quiet, shy almost, she was more introverted than not. She never spoke her feelings out loud and when asked a question she would just cock her head to the side and shrug her shoulder. I wonder sometimes
I never heard her voice her opinion of politics and not even the Christianity that she held private in her heart. Asking her what she was thinking was a lesson at futility. She did not share much
I never knew her favorite color or her favorite food. Come to think of it, it must have been beans and weenies or mac and cheese………. Bless her heart she was a terrible cook.
But she loved hats and flowers and singing.
BUT throughout the past many years you would find my mom sitting in her comfy chair reading her bible. She always had a little note pad of some kind or the other where she would make notes as she studied. Page after page after page she would write. Scripture after scripture she would pen. The heart and the soul and the inner tenderness of my mother lie in these notes written on these pages.
The word of God in Luke 2:19 tells us… But Mary kept all these things, and pondered them in her heart.
I liken that to my mom. Yes she was quiet and spoke very few words, but all those things that she studied over the years she kept hidden in her heart.
How do I know that?
Monday afternoon while laying in her hospital bed she began to talk, oh you could not understand much of what she was saying and my son Chris said it was the most he had ever heard her talk. But every once in a while she would speak just as clear as I am speaking now and it would be the word of God.
Son of God, Lord of Lord and King of Kings………. And the truth shall set me free.She spoke of forgiveness once and then on to Jesus the redeemer and savior of the world. And on she spoke. Sometime around Monday midnight she began to sing.
Precious memories, In the Sweet by and by . My Jesus I Love Thee..Coming up out of her spirit man was her communication with the one that she knew best. Up out her spirit man came the praise and adoration of the one that she found to be the lover of her soul.
The veil from her eyes were being lifted and she was seeing and communing with things that we can only imagine.
Tuesday morning she became unresponsive and never spoke another word. She had seen across Jordan and nothing else needed to be said.
A quiet woman, yes……. A woman of few words, yes………..but a woman that was rooted and grounded in the faith. A woman that pondered all things that she had invested into her heart……..
And as she was just hours from heavens door she gave us that would remain behind just a peek into the beauty of the heart of a woman named Helen.
She had a personal intimate relationship with the Christ who saved her. And on Wednesday morning around 1:15 am the Christ , the lover of her soul honored her request to go home … and she slipped into her eternity.
I look forward to sitting and talking with my mom one day………. For as she said sometime on Monday…….. and the truth shall set me free……… Mom is home and mom is free and I bet she is talking up a storm……….
My sweet friend, that is so beautiful! I will be praying for you and your family. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteDeb
I am so sorry for your loss.I know how it feels to lose your mother.I recently lost my husband of 39 years I know what pain is all about.
ReplyDeleteTake care of yourself
Diane
Denise, as I read each word, I got goosebumps all over my arms and a tingly sensation in my heart. This is such a beautiful post and such a lovely way of sharing your mother with us. Girl, I am just sitting here crying like a baby. My heart is so broken for YOU, but I cannot help but feel such love and energy knowing that your parents are together. They say that those who have loved each other for years often go within months of each other. Both sets of my grandparents did just this..so we went through double loses in a matter of just two years. CAN YOU JUST IMAGINE the reunion they had! We have to feel happy for the loves of our life when they move on. It is NEVER easy and there are days that I feel so lonely and empty. I have to pull back and smile and trust and have faith and know we will all be together again.
ReplyDeletei love you,
becky
A beautiful eulogy said from the heart, she would have been proud of you, dear Denise. My dad was the same way, very quiet, shy and never spoke of his feelings or talked much. But, he was the gentlest and kindest man one could meet. I'm thinking of you and prayers are being said...your mom is truly home now:-) xoxo
ReplyDeleteBeyond precious, love you dear.
ReplyDeletePrayers lifted that soon your grief with be softened by the sweet memories of your mom (and dad).
ReplyDeletexoxo
Donna
Absolutely beautiful, Denise! We'll miss you, but understand, and will look forward to your return when you are ready.
ReplyDeleteWOW - what a SWEET eulogy. Was that hard to deliver? I would've had a hard time. You are VERY strong inside. That must be hard not knowing a few little things about her ... but someday.
ReplyDeleteGod bless you - rest and take time.
72 days is such a short time. I wonder if "home" was in the arms of her late hubby? Just a thot of mine as I read this.
Denise, I happened by your blog a couple of weeks ago. I have been checking in every now and then to read how your mum is faring.
ReplyDeleteI am sad that she has died, but really, my spirit rejoices. I feel sad, for you, because I went through the loss of my mother 9 years ago. She was just 66 yo. I understand your pain.
I have been so blessed to read of your honour and committment to your parents. I know this pleases the Lord no end. Such honouring will bring a great reward to you for this is what His word promises.
I pray His peace and love and grace surround you during this time and that He will fill the ache and void left by mother's passing. May you find much rest and solitude in the safety of His arms.
Bless you precious sister in Christ.
Yes, you take that time. Walk and remember each day to think of something that is you. Who you are as you lay it down. You succeeded in mission. You are competent in what He asked of you darling.
ReplyDeleteThis week I remembered that flowers and the planting of them bring joy. Amazing powerful energy giving joy. Tomorrow...the question will be
What brings you joy, what is it that causes a big smile to come over you in the most unexpected of ways?
think on these things that you have witnessed and seen in him. This is what our words to each other will be.
I love you my Sister my friend.
Awww my blogger friend; if i were near you right now I would reach out and hug you tight. I am so very sorry for your double loss in such a short time. Know you will be in my prayers and my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteMy sweet sister in Christ and my dear friend, I am crying again..I wish so bad to be able to hug you, what you wrote about you momma was beautiful and you take your time, yes I will be missing you and your blogs but it's so understanding, I know that feeling of just wanting to be alone, I am still in that part of my grieving all though I have come to sit on my heavenly fathers lap more and more these last few weeks and it feels so good, as I type that I felt a smile come across my face...and one day my sweet sister we will all be reunited with our loved ones that are heaven and I can not wait for that day to come, this song came to my heart just now " And what a day of rejoicing that will be, when we all see JESUS we'll shout the victory..."
ReplyDeleteI LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH
I look so forward to meeting your Momma one day Denise. Reading your memories... here and heart.... gave me goosebumps as well as tears.
ReplyDeleteWhat a blessing God gave you to beable hear your Momma praising HIM the day before she went HOME. Mmmm.... I have no doubt you will cherish that until you are with her again and praise Him together!!!!
I have been thinking of you so often, and are lifting you in my prayers. Big hugs, Lea
You know I have wondered at times what people would say of me when I pass.
ReplyDeleteWould they remember my heart for Jesus or just think I was a nice person?
God is greatly glorified in this post about your Mom. How sweet to look on the lives of our parents knowing without a doubt that their hearts belonged to Him.
Rest in Him girl...He is ever near holding you close.
Praying you know His peace and love during this healing time.
It's just after midnight and I'm thinking of you and praying for you.
ReplyDeleteLove ya!
Thank you for sharing about your sweet, quit Mom's homegoing. I am right now dealing with a very sick Mother who will probably be going home to Jesus before too long and you don't know how comforting it has been to be reminded of what awaits her in the arms of cherished savior Jesus Christ. You are in my prayers
ReplyDeleteBeautiful!
ReplyDeleteD
Dear Denise,
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss of your Mom and Dad. This is such a beautiful post, as only you could write it. God bless you as you go through this time. I am thinking of you and sending prayers for you, too, blog friend. You have one of the best outlooks on life, a heart of gratitude and love, and I know that it will carry you through.
Most sincerely,
Tart
oh Denise, what tender and wise words that flowed from your mind. I am in tears just grieving with you, but someday, you will get to that place where your mom and dad are at peace and in love with our Lord and Savior. I also pray that I get that same opportunity and that is why I try very hard to keep my faith and soul intact and free from the devil. Rest and grieve now and I will check on you from time to time. You are not forgotten in prayer. Many Blessings and love, Pat
ReplyDeleteI'm lifting you up this very moment dear Denise..... someone in Arkansas loves ya. Lea
ReplyDeleteThis was so sweet and precious, dear Denise. May the Lord be near ... I know He is.
ReplyDeleteDenise, A beautiful post, my friend. I'm so glad your mother was in communication with our heavenly father as she passed. Yes, she is sitting at his feet, talking and singing up a storm. Glory!!! The angels are celebrating her homecoming. Looking forward to talking to you.
ReplyDeleteBlessings,
Mary
What a testimony to a wonderful lady!! What a fabulous woman she must have been!! Plus the writing was just great!! I am so so sorry for you loss...God knows what he is doing..He always does. I have found that out more and more in the past few years. God will heal your heart..but in time. I know you know that.
ReplyDeleteBlessings, Sandy
I have been praying for you girl. And although I have not been through what you have been through this past year...but I can imagine the extreme pain in your heart.
ReplyDeleteSeasons...they are strange aren't they? I am with you on not really caring for facebook. It is just not personal enough....not a place where you would go to bare your heart or share the deep things of the Lord. I know that God is trying to do a work in me....He will not stand to have His child sitting. Maybe one day soon I will be back on my blog....life is pretty confusing right now and to try and share that without messing someone up...I don't think I can.
I will continue to keep up with my sisters that are still blogging...so don't stop. I love you girl...and know that I am still here for you.
Love you deeply
Bless you dear sister....for your love and honor of your mom and dad - in life and in death! what a beautiful tribute to your mom's faith. I love it! that's the way it should be for us Christians. The Word of the Lord on our lips - even in death. Praise Jesus for her testament to that faith - in the presence of her family. Precious! Just precious. You will never forget those days.
ReplyDeleteWhat a precious gift the Lord has given you - even in your present sorrow. Your butterfly will come!
Gentle Hugs,
Patrina <")>><
Oh, my sweet friend, I did not know your mother had passed away. That is just beautiful what you wrote. You loved and served your parents well. Praying for you, Dear ~ Hugs ~
ReplyDeleteDenise,
ReplyDeleteI am glad your back visiting blogland..I think it will help you help take your mind off of things a tiny, tiny bit in the days ahead. I know it will take time to heal from such a double loss...but God is able.
And I know you realize that as well.
I really can't say enough to tell you just how sorry I am for your losses...
I think you've stated things just wonderful in your own words.
Keep writing...it will help you in this new season.
Be blessed,
Joyce
Thank you Denise for your visit. May God comfort your heart at this time. Blessings.
ReplyDeleteDenise, darling, I haven't stopped by for a while but have prayed many times. This memory of your precious mother is beautiful. Thank you for sharing it with us.
ReplyDeleteYour parents must have been very close. They practically went home together. I hope the thought of that comforts you. How precious our Savior to know the details of our heart so intimately.
I added your page to my the blogroll I keep on my sidebar so that I can be updated more easily on your posts. Look forward to visiting again.
Much love and blessings sis.